So last week was an off week. I felt alone and ignored because none of my friends were responding to the multiple calls and texts and comments left for them. So I stayed away from Facebook as much as possible and when I was on my status's may have been a bit harsh. But the real thing is I knew that V-Day was just around the corner.
Let's set the record straight I HATE or better yet LOATHE Valentine's Day. I always have. Could it be that I have NEVER had a good Valentine's Day? I've either been alone pining for my Valentine, dumped by my fiance, or been married but not in love. All these things lead to the hatred of the day of love.
While yes the day has it's great points, such as...
- Chocolate
- Adding to my stuffed bear/animal collection
- and you guessed it more chocolate
It also has it's downers, such as...
- Being alone
- Flowers (which I'm allergic too btw)
- and yep Chocolate
This is one of those days where lonely women gorge themselves with Chocolate so that they feel loved. The only thing I want for Valentine's Day is a simple "Hi, how are you? I miss you!" from a great guy. I look forward to it every year and I haven't gotten it yet. Hence the reason for no good Valentine's Day. This year I was especially looking forward to it due to some really hard issues I am going through. But then I realized I don't even need that. While yes it would have been great, I realized that I don't need a guy to make me happy. I just need to find the happiness inside me and let it show.
So this morning I donned my red tank top, jeans and a nice white dress shirt with belt. I went to work and had a great day. I came home and took a nap. Then I watched Life As We Know It twice. I listened to and posted some GREAT music (love songs coincidentally) to facebook. I didn't let the day get to me.
Now I am ready to start a new day again tomorrow.
