WTF

What in the heck is going on with me lately?  I just don't know.  I can't seem to go after what I want myself but I can write an almost pornographic scene about it for a story.  Maybe I am wondering is it what I really want?  I don't know if it is or not.  I care about somebody and I hate to see them hurting the way that they currently are but do they care about me the same way I care about them or do they just want sex.  I think it is a very fine line for them and I don't know how I feel about that.  This doesn't even really make sense to me but I needed to rant so there it is.

Last night...

So I woke up yesterday feeling really good and my day just got worse as the morning went on.  Both my breakfast and lunch were long gone when I went to put them in my lunchbox, there were several areas of construction on my way to work and I had the worst ADD attack ever.  But I knew at some point I would get to see my friend and I really needed to see him.  He walked in a few hours later and with one hug I was able to relax and the ADD slightly subsided.  We made plans for later that night and talked a bit before I had to get back to work.  I expected the text that came after he left though...it is always inevitable.

Anyways, my ADD subsided and I listened to my music to make it completely disappear and the day absolutely flew by.  We sit down in the theater and then he tells me he already saw the movie...I wanted to kill him but didn't because he had been nice enough to go with me again.  After the movie since I hadn't eaten yet that day and it was almost 10:30 we drove over to Eat'n'Park and ate and just talked.  It was a fun night and by the time we got back to my car I didn't want to get out but since I had to work again today I had to.  Part of me almost turned around and went back...lol, but I forced myself to keep going.

Oh well it was still a great night with a friend I almost never get to see so it all added up to a good night in my book.  In today's news I made a really good paycheck with one job and an okay paycheck submitted for the other job.  There was no construction and I only work until 3 which means I can take my Kindle and read at the park in the sun and hopefully finish my beta book!!!