Fate is kicking in!!!

So I got in contact with the girl about the room for rent and I think it will be a really good fit.  I think that I will be able to manage it quite well.  I also have myself some health insurance, just in time from the sounds of it.  Plus I will be paying off what's left to pay for this semester of school soon as well.  While still being in the area is the farthest thing from what I really want it will do for now.  I just have to move on and get out of here.

Anyways, that is all I wanted to say for today.  Just wanted to say that things are good and I will be moving soon!  That was the bright spot in my awful week so far.  I need to go to bed but I got too much to do tonight.

I'll Stand By You!

I am so confused lately.  Last night I got on CraigsList and found a place in Beaver Falls looking for a roommate (college students).  They only want $200 a month for the rent.  It would be much much closer to work, which isn't a big deal since I only work 15 minutes away now (20 on a bad day).  I wouldn't have as long to freak out in the snow or storms and my car wouldn't end up in the ditch on the way home on snowy days.  I would also be close enough to home that instead of paying to do laundry if need be I can go home on Monday's and do laundry...while nobody is home!

So your probably wondering, "Why are you confused" now huh?  Well see the thing is I only make around $900 a month at the library.  I have to get and pay for insurance as soon as I can but since the site has been down due to government shutdown's that is damn near impossible, so I don't know how much that will cost.  I will have to get some sort of wi-fi so that I can do school work, my second job and hook up my PS3 and Kindle for internet (most likely).  Then I have the car payment and would also have to factor in groceries and gas money (which would be considerably less).  So now you see where the dilemma lies...being able to pay for everything else.

I would love to be able to get a house of my own and rent out a couple rooms in it but with only around $900 a month coming in I don't see that happening.  Even with the second job (which I'm lucky if I have time to bring in $200 a month in from) it's really not enough to cover expenses.  I still know that I have to get out of my current living situation because I can't take it much longer.  I would prefer to get out of the state but that definitely isn't a feasible option right now, one day but not right now.

A while back I wanted to get a new job but there isn't really anything close and I am not driving all the way to Pittsburgh in rush hour every day!  I have patience just not while I am driving in traffic.  I would never be a happy person if I worked in Pittsburgh...lol!  I like how laid back the library is and how I have a ton of freedom to do whatever I want here.  I see a project that needs done I can just do it I don't have to ask.  Anywhere else I would have to ask to do anything.  I guess I just need to make more time for the second job.  I may have the two busiest days of Indexing off starting next month so if I fit in 8 hour of indexing in those days I would be pulling in closer to $800 a month with the second job and that's only working 8 days a month...yes that is a little backwards I know.  Almost the same amount for working 8 days a month as working an entire month!

I guess what I'm saying is if/when I get this place I will have to start doing a shit load of indexing on my days off and treat them as a day at the library.  That will leave only Sunday's for any major homework and reading I have to get done.  This year I am going to school in the summer as well, trying to get all the required classes done this year so I can focus solely on my major and minor after this year.  That's another thing, I still owe $1000 for school this year as well...student loans didn't cover everything the last two semesters.  I'm hoping next year I will be able to get a bit more if I'm not living at home!!

Okay this rant is done!  I think I have come to the conclusion that I should at least text the lister and find out more about the place before I move forward.  Guess I just needed to write it all out in order to figure it out so thanks for reading this rant!

Clarity!

So I took my vacation and had a blast...but then I was thrust back into reality and it's been rough.  Can I just say that I would totally live in the European countryside (specifically France).  There was of course a plus side to this trip however, I realized a lot about myself in the week I was gone and I came back clear minded and a plan formulated as to how I can obtain the things I need to get done.  However, one of those plans has already backfired and I am working on formulating a new plan.

The first thing I am working on is job related...see I don't want a new job but I do want to eliminate one of the two (technically three) I do have.  I was hoping to go full time at my job from home but when I asked mom about it she told me she didn't have any full time positions available.  My thinking in going to full time there is that I would start getting benefits, I get paid $4 an hour more than the library, I can work from anywhere with a wi-fi connection (if I have my laptop), and I can more easily manage school and work.  I would still love to work at the library on Saturday's but we'll see!  For now I will continue working both jobs until a full time position with my at home job opens up.

The second thing is finding a place of my own.  I would really like to rent a house instead of an apartment.  I mean if I'm going to be spending a few hundred dollars a month I want it to be worth it with lots of available space.  Also I would love to get a place in Maryland so that I can also get in state tuition at school but it is really expensive down there.  I did find a few places in the Youngstown, Ohio area that were within my price range that I really loved.  So now it is a saving and waiting game to see if it is an option in the next few months.  The goal is no later than April of next year to be moved out  and in my own place.

Third is I have got to take better care of myself.  I have to find the time to start exercising more often and I have got to get myself some insurance ASAP.  I would love to get a job that offers insurance (like the full time position from home...just saying) but for now I'm just going to start looking into some cheap insurance to get me coverage.  I have got to get my retainer fixed and since I don't feel like paying $300 to do so insurance is a must.  I also have to get in to see an asthma specialist and a chiropractor...also something I don't want to pay out of pocket for.  Over my trip I realized how out of shape I am yet again so my goal is to get back into decent shape by the beginning of next year and stay that way.  Which means daily or weekly exercise and eating better.  I am debating on whether to buy Insanity for like $175 or find something cheaper as well.

I am also hoping to pay the bulk of my car off in the next year and then start on the student loans I have started to accrue.  I don't want to continue taking student loans but with all these other plans I may have to.  I am still formulating a new plan on the job front  and will be working on scheduling my time so that I can fit in the exercise at least every other day if not daily!  I have some good goals for the rest of this year and can't wait to get started on them.

Clarity by Zedd ft Foxes Music Video

Needless to say this song hit me this morning and it has been stuck in my head all day and is part of the reason I wrote out this post.  I want to stick to these goals but I will need help from my friends to achieve each of these goals.  Somebody has to keep me on track and I'm not sure who it is going to be.  I need somebody in my life that understands what I want and that I will work my ass off to get it and I don't know that I have anybody like that who lives in the vicinity that can help me out.

Irritated!

I would just like to say that while we may not talk often you would think something like a work schedule that is the same just about every week would be EASY to figure out.  For the most part I work the same thing every week.  During school I work half days on Thursday's and yes occassionally I have the random Friday off and during the summer Saturday's are half days.  This week is an odd week as I work half a day Thursday (not in school right now) and have the random Friday off and have the half day Saturday.  Tuesday's and Wednesday's NEVER change.  So why do I get a call asking if I want something from Max & Erma's and told that my schedule is so confusing?  I WORK THE SAME THING EVERY WEEK FOR THE MOST PART!!!!

Also, when you see a large pile of work that needs done and see your co-worker is clearly busy why don't you get off your ass and do it instead of sitting there reading?  I am so glad said co-worker is gone for a month and then I leave a week after she gets back.  I don't quite get the point of her working here twice a week if she isn't willing to help with the weekly jobs besides putting away books, making unnecessary signs and cleaning the kids room (inefficiently).

Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest it has been a very bad day so far and I have to go home and work my second job.  I still have an hour and a half here and then home to eat, fold laundry and get to work at the second job (gotta start saving for the rest of my tuition and books for school now that vacation is paid for).  Glad I have half a day tomorrow, am off Friday and half a day on Saturday!  Gives me more time to work the second job that pays $4 more than the full time job...lol.

WTF

What in the heck is going on with me lately?  I just don't know.  I can't seem to go after what I want myself but I can write an almost pornographic scene about it for a story.  Maybe I am wondering is it what I really want?  I don't know if it is or not.  I care about somebody and I hate to see them hurting the way that they currently are but do they care about me the same way I care about them or do they just want sex.  I think it is a very fine line for them and I don't know how I feel about that.  This doesn't even really make sense to me but I needed to rant so there it is.

Last night...

So I woke up yesterday feeling really good and my day just got worse as the morning went on.  Both my breakfast and lunch were long gone when I went to put them in my lunchbox, there were several areas of construction on my way to work and I had the worst ADD attack ever.  But I knew at some point I would get to see my friend and I really needed to see him.  He walked in a few hours later and with one hug I was able to relax and the ADD slightly subsided.  We made plans for later that night and talked a bit before I had to get back to work.  I expected the text that came after he left though...it is always inevitable.

Anyways, my ADD subsided and I listened to my music to make it completely disappear and the day absolutely flew by.  We sit down in the theater and then he tells me he already saw the movie...I wanted to kill him but didn't because he had been nice enough to go with me again.  After the movie since I hadn't eaten yet that day and it was almost 10:30 we drove over to Eat'n'Park and ate and just talked.  It was a fun night and by the time we got back to my car I didn't want to get out but since I had to work again today I had to.  Part of me almost turned around and went back...lol, but I forced myself to keep going.

Oh well it was still a great night with a friend I almost never get to see so it all added up to a good night in my book.  In today's news I made a really good paycheck with one job and an okay paycheck submitted for the other job.  There was no construction and I only work until 3 which means I can take my Kindle and read at the park in the sun and hopefully finish my beta book!!!

It's been a while...

So I know it's been a while since I last posted but I've been just a little bit crazy.  A lot has happened however since I last posted.  I am about 2 weeks away from completing my first semester of school.  I am still going back and forth on doing a couple classes this summer but I think I will wait for fall when I know I have financial aid available.  Needless to say it looks like I will have straight A's my first semester, if the website I need goes back up and I can fix something on one of my assignments in the next couple of days.  I had to hold off on the indexing the last few weeks because I just didn't have time.  I look forward to the next few months when I can do a ton of indexing and then have a TON of money saved up for school.

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In other news May is going to be completely awesome.  My best friend Ben will be home most of the month.  There are a couple great movies coming out.  I finish school on Mother's Day.  Memorial Day means camping.  But most of all I get to relax and read again.  I have been on a reading kick since March and don't want to stop any time soon.  I look forward to hanging out with friends and camping and warm weather and oh so much more that comes with summer.

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Oh another note I paid off my Dell account all $1,200+ of it in one big sweep.  That means all I have is the car payment and I am free and clear until I have to start paying off student loans.  I am no longer going to Germany so that I can save for school, which is okay with me.  I started a blog where I will review all of the books I read as well.  Anyways, I have to go do some reading for school but I will try to post more often.

It's Gonna Be A Good Year!!!

So I am happy to announce that school is going really good so far.  I have done really well at keeping a week ahead in all my school work.  So far there has only been one section in Math that I couldn't understand.  I mean I understood how it worked but couldn't figure out why it was that way.  Intro to Research only has 2 weeks left which I have to admit is okay with me.  I mean it is the easiest class ever and boring beyond belief since I knew all the information already.  It was nice to learn a little bit about the library site though.  I will be interested to see how the second eight weeks go, what with having two eight week classes even if they are easy classes.

I am glad to be back to the indexing again though.  It is nice to have that supplemental income back, even if it does bring in more than my full time job at part time.  I am considering going to part time at the library and part time at the indexing.  I make more in 5 hours of indexing than I do in 8 hours at the library.  I just don't know exactly what to do yet but I do know that I'm pretty sure I can't do a full time job, a part time job and school full time.

I got my tax form for indexing, so as soon as I get my W-2 from the library and then I will work on my taxes.  I can't wait to see if I get anything back this year.  I really hope I do because that could go a long way in my debt and savings needs.  I am still going to fill out the FAFSA and see if I can get a grant and that will help me not have to save quite as much.  This is especially good since I SUCK at saving.  It is extremely good that I happen to have a paypal account that rarely ever gets used because I don't shop on e-bay anymore.  Next month I should be able to start my Money Market account and start saving for a trip or so.

Over the next month or so I will start paying off bills and I also have to get a spare tire for my car.  I also have to get my text books for my next two classes.  I am still debating on summer classes since I have a lot planned for this summer (camping trips, a trip to Utah, possibly a beach vacation and a trip to Germany).  All I know is I won't be doing anything in July but work, work, work because the new employee is taking the whole month off.  I just love that.  I have taken off for vacation once (and I only worked 1 day that week) since I started there, almost 3 years ago.  This year I put an end to that with a couple trips.

Anyways, I have some more work to do before I go to bed.  So goodnight all and I hope your year's are going as good as mine is.

Crazy weird!!!

So I just had the weirdest surprise ever when I got out of the shower.  I logged onto facebook again and found a friend request.  This wasn't just any request it was from my ex-husbands new wife.  I am a bit baffled by this and don't know what to do.  There is the odd chance that she just wants to get to know me, but then there is also the chance that she wants to bitch at me.  I really don't know what to do because well usually the new wife doesn't want to talk to the new wife.  This is just TOO crazy for me.

In other news I start classes on the 14th but can look at syllabi next Monday (the 7th).  Everybody says I am completely nuts but who cares.  Why do they say that you ask?  Well because I am completely and utterly excited to go back to school.  I love to learn and what better way to do it than to actually (finally) get my degree.

Resolutions for the year:  Pass all my classes, work hard and pay off most of my debt (Dell Financial and a good portion of the car loan), complete my EF fund ASAP, and just enjoy life.  I would love to say lose some weight and exercise but with the schedule I will have going that most likely won't happen and I'm ok with that.

I think that is all for now.  I think I'm going to go accept this friend request and see what happens.  I can always delete people.