There hasn't been much to update you all on but I have been doing A LOT of thinking lately.  I always thought that by 27 (which I will be in 10 days) I would be happy, have my life together and have my own family.  Honestly I don't know what has changed in my life.  Obviously nothing has change except my attitude.  As a personal choice I no longer go to church, I have never felt comfortable there and it just keeps getting worse.  I am going through a divorce which is almost ready to be finalized.  I was only supposed to be back at the parents house for the summer and it has been almost a year (imagine that). 

There has been one noticable change in my life and that is my debt issue.  I have THREE bills left to pay off.  I am slowly working on two of them and they will be paid off by this time next year at the latest.  The other one I am just going to pay off as soon as possible.  But then there is the fact that I am going to need a car ASAP so I may have to go and get a car loan which I am not looking forward too.  I have been working my ass off to pay off my debt and I may not have a choice in the matter.  How rude!

As for the summer well the summer goals don't allow for relaxation.  I won't quit the library but I will have to find 1 or 2 other jobs to go along with it.  If I could do that I would be able to pay off the one bill and possibly get a cheap car for the time being.  I just know that the truck isn't going to last much longer so I have to get something soon.  I have to be able to get a cheap place apartment somewhere in the next few months too.  So I have got to try and work up to 3 jobs this summer so that I can get out of this rut I'm in.

While life is complicated there are bright points and I look forward to them every day.  I can't imagine my life without my friends, they have always been a comfort to me.  I wish they all lived closer but that is something I can live with to be honest.  I still talk to them as much as I can.  Well I guess that is all I have for now.  My mind is more relaxed and settled now that I got all this out.  Later!