Something new...

So after my post the other night about being inspired to get back on the path of following my dreams I decided to start keeping a journal of sorts.  I found this little notebook and have decided that I will carry it around with me.  If something I see, heard, say or do sparks something for a story it will be written down.  

I feel like that is part of my problem.  I get these ideas while I’m standing at work or shopping.  Then by the time I get home they are gone.  Like the other day I had forgotten that the weirdest thing I saw was two big, burly bikers were riding those stupid rideable animals through the mall.  Or what about the older woman who put on one of the tutus we keep in the photo area and then took her pants off for a photo.  Or the older gentleman who did the same thing, but took his shirt off too and put on a jacket.  These are see through bottoms so yes we can see your underwear especially when they are teal!!!  Just saying.

What made these instances pop into my head?  Probably the fact that people are freaking crazy.  Most likely the fact that I have been trying to come up with new story ideas.  Who knows.  I look forward to regaling you with more tales from the fabulous life I lead working in the mall.

Music City Here I Am...

So as you all know Nashville is know as Music City, if you didn't already know that then you do now.  It is a city for those who dream about being heard.  While I didn't move down here for music I do still want to be heard.  What I didn't realize is that there are a lot of publishing companies down here as well.  But I digress.

Tonight, my roommates friend came over and I was invited to join the conversation.  Can I just say that self doubt and depression are one and the same.  When a person is depressed they are down on themselves and feel like they are not good at what they do.  There should have been no self doubt for this guy.  I got to hear several of his songs live and in person in my living room and he was amazing.  I hope that he finds his path again soon because the world should hear him.

However, I can tell you that not everybody out there should be on the stage.  Every Saturday and Sunday the mall I work at has people on stage singing right outside of the wax museum.  Let me tell you, I have had a lot of my favorite songs butchered by people singing on that stage.  My co-workers and I enjoy talking about the people on stage if we're bored.  We tone it down when the teenagers are working though, sometimes. 

Anyways, the point of this post wasn't meant to be about music.  The point of this post was about following your dreams.  November is going to be a crazy month for me, I think.  Not only am I hopefully going to be working two jobs but it is also NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month).  That means I hope to get to writing again and possibly write a complete story, not a short story either.  It will be a lot of work but living in a quieter environment I am hoping to have more time to spend on my writing and crafting.

Not only that but our conversations tonight got me thinking and I need to move past my past.  I need to let go and move on.  I need to let myself make friends.  Who cares if every single one of my friends has walked out of my life in the past, I need to move forward and let myself make new ones.  Friends come and go but loneliness can be forever.  I need to be open to more of the opportunities around me and the people around me.  I feel more confident being out of the toxic environments I was previously in but I am still far from out of the woods. 

I have been sitting here mulling over our conversations for a couple hours now and it bothered me that I hadn't realized how much of life I have been missing out on.  Now that I have written this out it all seems so simple and my mind is a lot less everywhere.  I will keep you all apprised as to how the moving on and letting stuff go is going.  I look forward to finding my path in life and following it all the way to the end.

A new place, a new me...

Back in May I made the move to Nashville and after doing multiple apartment hunts, job hunts and working two jobs for a while I have started exploring the city.  However, I am once again looking for a second job in order to catch up on debt and then pay off debt.  So first a little about what's going on with me.

I am currently living in a house in East Nashville that is literally making me sick.  But on a stroke of luck I have found a new place that is about the same distance away from work.  I will be moving to a healthier environment with only one person instead of four people, this weekend.  This will be an interesting situation for me but a good one all the same.

When I first moved down here I had a full-time position at a high end fashion store inside a major hotel and then I got a part-time position at Madame Tussaud's Wax Attraction inside the mall next door to the hotel.  Due to bad management and lack of respect shown by said management I quit my position at the fashion shop and went strictly to Madame Tussaud's.  Now I am on the hunt for job two again.  I did try and considered Instacart (an app where you shop for people and then deliver their groceries).  I have also signed up for UBER but am iffy about driving people around.  All in all I don't think either of those are for me.  However, today I did a job hunt online and there are several places I have either applied or will apply to tomorrow.  Amazon is having a hiring event tomorrow that I intend to attend and then I will head to the mall and discuss another position with the candy store, It's Sugar, that I also know is hiring a key holder.  Both of these are viable options without getting rid of my job at Madame Tussaud's (as I can get a job anywhere in the world with this position).  

All in all I am really hoping to get a position with Amazon because it pays really well and there will be benefits.  It also isn't in retail or the mall which is a major plus.  However, from what I understand it could take me almost an hour to two hours to make the 10 minute drive to work due to Country Christmas that happens at the hotel I used to work at and the Amazon location I would work at is also 10 minutes from both the mall and my new place.  So everything is a 10 minute drive lol.  The candy store is in the mall so it would be a quick walk from one store to the other.  It doesn't pay nearly as much and it is IN THE MALL.  That's a lot of people and a lot of mall time for the holiday season.

As you can see I have a lot to think about and I have to figure out the best thing for me.  I have been struggling to find time to read and craft at all.  I do however, look forward to re-opening my Etsy store (once I move).  I plan to continue Instacart when I have time and possibly charging scooters every night (it's something new I found and need to do more research).

Even with all that on my mind things are going really well.  I have not been dealing with my allergy struggles here like I was there.  I may be strapped for cash and hate my kitchen but in a few weeks I will be eating healthier and trying to do some meal prepping (when possible).  I have plans to color my hair brown with teal/aqua highlights as soon as the cash flow is there.  I am still dealing with the stress of life but it isn't as prominent and tough to handle here as it was in Pennsylvania.  My depression is gone.  I have enjoyed exploring the city I now call home.  Do I miss people back home?  Absolutely and I look forward to seeing them soon.

I will be going home at the end of the month for a day (Friday - Sunday but Friday and Sunday are drive days) in order to pick up some of my things from storage.  So now that you are up to date on what is going on in my life right now I am going to let you go.  But keep your eyes open for new posts about the things I've been doing around town lately and how life is going.