Clarity!

So I took my vacation and had a blast...but then I was thrust back into reality and it's been rough.  Can I just say that I would totally live in the European countryside (specifically France).  There was of course a plus side to this trip however, I realized a lot about myself in the week I was gone and I came back clear minded and a plan formulated as to how I can obtain the things I need to get done.  However, one of those plans has already backfired and I am working on formulating a new plan.

The first thing I am working on is job related...see I don't want a new job but I do want to eliminate one of the two (technically three) I do have.  I was hoping to go full time at my job from home but when I asked mom about it she told me she didn't have any full time positions available.  My thinking in going to full time there is that I would start getting benefits, I get paid $4 an hour more than the library, I can work from anywhere with a wi-fi connection (if I have my laptop), and I can more easily manage school and work.  I would still love to work at the library on Saturday's but we'll see!  For now I will continue working both jobs until a full time position with my at home job opens up.

The second thing is finding a place of my own.  I would really like to rent a house instead of an apartment.  I mean if I'm going to be spending a few hundred dollars a month I want it to be worth it with lots of available space.  Also I would love to get a place in Maryland so that I can also get in state tuition at school but it is really expensive down there.  I did find a few places in the Youngstown, Ohio area that were within my price range that I really loved.  So now it is a saving and waiting game to see if it is an option in the next few months.  The goal is no later than April of next year to be moved out  and in my own place.

Third is I have got to take better care of myself.  I have to find the time to start exercising more often and I have got to get myself some insurance ASAP.  I would love to get a job that offers insurance (like the full time position from home...just saying) but for now I'm just going to start looking into some cheap insurance to get me coverage.  I have got to get my retainer fixed and since I don't feel like paying $300 to do so insurance is a must.  I also have to get in to see an asthma specialist and a chiropractor...also something I don't want to pay out of pocket for.  Over my trip I realized how out of shape I am yet again so my goal is to get back into decent shape by the beginning of next year and stay that way.  Which means daily or weekly exercise and eating better.  I am debating on whether to buy Insanity for like $175 or find something cheaper as well.

I am also hoping to pay the bulk of my car off in the next year and then start on the student loans I have started to accrue.  I don't want to continue taking student loans but with all these other plans I may have to.  I am still formulating a new plan on the job front  and will be working on scheduling my time so that I can fit in the exercise at least every other day if not daily!  I have some good goals for the rest of this year and can't wait to get started on them.

Clarity by Zedd ft Foxes Music Video

Needless to say this song hit me this morning and it has been stuck in my head all day and is part of the reason I wrote out this post.  I want to stick to these goals but I will need help from my friends to achieve each of these goals.  Somebody has to keep me on track and I'm not sure who it is going to be.  I need somebody in my life that understands what I want and that I will work my ass off to get it and I don't know that I have anybody like that who lives in the vicinity that can help me out.