Wow has a lot happened since the last time I posted but I can't talk about half of it yet as it isn't all resolved yet. Some of the things that have happened are showing to cause a ton of conflict for me. I can't wait for things to finally make sense and get better but for now I will continue struggling and making due. I am working two jobs and looking for another one that I can do full time from home. That is raising a bit of an issue but that is a normal occurrence in my life. I am working at the library part time and selling the Usborne books. The library is great with only one small hitch in the fact that it only pays on the 15th of every month (that's it...once a month) so I struggle to make ends meet through out the month. The Usborne thing is starting slow since I wasn't able to get my name out there but this coming month I am taking a Saturday off and doing my first booth which will get me out there. I have had one good party but the rest have pretty much been duds. I am still keeping at it though and refuse to give up. I don't really have anything else that I can say here for now. All I can say is I can't wait to be able to stop struggling with all this stuff locked up inside of me. Only one person knows the whole story and that's how I'm going to keep it for now. It's Halloween my favorite holiday and I totally don't get the chance to dress up. It is a depressing Halloween this year but what can I say not all years can be good. I know that next year will be better because I won't have all this crap on my plate. But next month should be a lot better. I still can't believe that in TWO days it will be November. Where did this year go? Hopefully come January I will have all this worked out be able to talk about it but for now I will be keeping you in suspense. Later mom wants to use her laptop so I have to get off of it. I will try to keep you up to date from now on. Should be a lot to tell soon.