Monday, June 18, 2012

The boiling point!!!

I am done...I am so fed-up with all this shit.  I am saving every possible penny I have available for a car.  I am starting to pray that I get this new position and am killing myself with indexing.  Any money from indexing, any reimbursement money and half of my paycheck will go into savings (given to dad to hold onto).  Mid-July I plan to get a car with what is saved.  Beginning of August I will be out of this place.  I looked into apartments today and found one in Monaca that I really like.  I am really hoping I get this head librarian position so I can manage paying off the last of my bills, have an apartment and be able to get groceries.

The first few months in a new place will be spent getting furniture and other needed things for an apartment as well as paying off bills.  I am just glad that I got the bulk of my debt gone.  Only two bills left!!!!  One I am throwing as much as I can at each month.  The other one I still owe $450 or something on and am hoping to be able to throw all of a paycheck at it next month.  We will see how that goes.  Everything is starting to fall into place for me.  I keep saying that and everything falls apart but this time I can feel it.

I have been sick a lot the last month and I think it is all the stress I have been under.  I have been working 20 or more hour days for the last month.  Even my days off I spend working.  I am actually on a short break from work now.  I need a life that doesn't involve work all day long.  I spend every second of my day working one of three jobs.  There are days where I work until 1 or 2 in the morning just to wake up and do it all again.  Nobody understands how hard I work and then they bitch and moan about it.

So much I can't even put it all into words.  I will know tonight what happens with the job I hope.  If not tonight then this week sometime.  I have been unable to get into books lately as well but I did get started on a couple books this weekend.  I will go now and get back to work.  Later!!!

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