randomness of me

So it's that time of year when nobody comes to the library because well there is just a lot going on.  I both love it and hate it.  I am completely bored right now and I can't continue reading my book because my phone is about to die and I still have a party after my 45 minutes of work.  I really want to know how my book ends though so I will probably end up finishing it tonight.  I will say it is nice to have time to read again...that won't be the case much longer as I go back to indexing and start school next month some time.  I still don't know what will be happening with the indexing job offered to me.  I hate not know what is going on and having things hanging in the balance of disarray.

I have taken to wearing my wedding ring to work again because I am sick of the old guys hitting on me.  Maybe the ring will deter that a bit more.  I doubt it but it is worth a shot at least.  Plus I do love my ring, it is a smaller version of the one that was stolen YEARS ago (almost 5 years to be exact) and it is a butterfly.  I'm a nut for anything butterfly related.

I am totally excited to start school on the 14th.  I have my Math books ordered and should get them tomorrow, I hope.  I want to get the chance to look over them before the class starts so that I have a general idea as to what is going on in the class.  This class is going to be rough what with not having anybody to explain stuff to me in person but I will make it through.  The other class doesn't have books.  When Math ends I have two more classes but the books for that can wait until I can get a book voucher and pay tuition.

Whatever money is left I think I am going to go out and buy the new iPad.  If I were smart I would put it in savings so I could start throwing extra money at bills to get them paid off.  I have just wanted an iPad for so long...that and a Kindle.  It would be nice not to have to read my books via my phone and have the battery die. But if I get the iPad I can get the Kindle app for it and have both...lol.  Even though that money should go to the savings (Paypal account).  We'll see what happens though.

I have so much more I want to rant about but don't have nearly enough time.  I will write more later.

Christmas Day!!

So Christmas is not an ordinary day for me.  I am always the first one up.  I woke up at 3:30 this morning and just laid there for almost 2 hours waiting for the first person to wake up.  I am like a little kid on Christmas Day. 

So far this morning I have folded a load of laundry, switched mine to the dryer, did my hair and brushed my teeth.  Dad brought all his presents up.  Mom just got in the shower and the sister isn't up yet.  So why have I been up for hours already.  Well I would love to know that myself.  I only had three hours of sleep and I am wide awake gosh darn it.

What makes things more interesting is that I only had three hours yesterday.  I went to sleep at 7 am and woke up at almost 11 am.  I did lay there for an hour that is another thing altogether.  We'll see how long I last with a good attitude today!

Anyways, hope you all have a GREAT day and that all your Christmas Wishes come true!

Christmas Wishes...

I make the same Christmas wishes every year, well at least for the last 8 years or so, and there have been a couple years where I got the one but it hasn't lasted yet.  The other one just keeps evading me.  Sometimes I think I should just give up but I also know that I won't.  I want both to come true, and last, so badly that it hurts.  I won't tell you what the wishes are because well then they may never come true and I really want them too...oh so badly.

I work my butt off to make my goals and dreams possible.  So is all the work really worth it.  I don't know that it is because I don't feel like I have gotten anywhere with it.  But then I look at my debt and I see that yes some of my goals are getting done.  I am down to just one of my original debts and it is almost paid off.  So as long as I stay on task I will be able to pay off student loans as soon as they need paid and my car will be paid off quickly.  Once my car is paid off is when I will most likely be able to make one of my Christmas wishes come true for good, but we will see.

I don't ask for help often, but when I do you know there is something really wrong, or I just can't quite manage it myself.  I may feel like I am getting nowhere but I know that isn't true so I guess I just suck it up and wish my Christmas wishes until they come true...they are also my birthday wishes.  Honestly, they aren't really things other people can give me but things I have to get for myself.

That is my rant for now.  Goodnight world!

Too many options...

I love my job and don't want to quit but there are about to be some major changes (well possibly) going on and I don't know if it will be an option to put as many hours into it as I have been.  I start school again on the 14th of January.  I may also be offered a full time position from home.  If I take the full time postition then I will definitely have to cut back my hours at the library.  I have been struggling with this decision for a couple days now.  Today however I have the strong feeling that I HAVE to take the full time position if it is offered to me.  It pays $4 more and has benefits and I can work from home and do school work from home all at the same time.  I could put more time into the Usborne Books if I wanted too as well and book some parties.

However, taking the position would mean I would have to cut out a lot of my library hours.  I'm thinking Wednesday and Thursday nights and all day Saturdays could be an option.  I know I am the only full time person there besides the head librarian so it will cause some major disarray in the beginning but I will figure it out.

Anyways, I have to go finish getting ready for a family gathering.  I was going to straighten my hair but don't see a point with the non-stop raining going on outside.  I'll let you know how this goes one way or the other.  Later

It's the most wonderful time of the year...or is it?

So it is the Christmas season again and I can't believe there are only 3 weeks left in the year.  I both love and hate this time of year.  I love the holiday movies and songs.  I love the baking and the crafts I get to make.  I love that some people are less grouchy.

I have to say that I am one of those people who gets more grouchy and depressed.  I hate that the holidays have been so commercialized.  It's not about presents or giving or spending every dime in your pocket.  It is about family and friends and getting together to have fun.  Christmas is not the only holiday I feel has become too commercialized but it is the current one.

I will admit that yes I like the holiday but I think I dislike it more.  I hate my allergies that have gotten so bad that I can't decorate the tree, which used to be my favorite besides baking.  I hate the commercialism.  I hate that I get all this stuff that I can't use so I have to find the time to return it.

I would be completely happy if I could do my baking and chocolate making, watch the movies, listen to the music, and craft.  I also wish instead of gifts that I don't want people would just give me visa gift cards or cash that I could use anywhere.  I think if people spent less time and money finding things that their kids or well anybody else don't need and/or won't use and just spent more time together I might like the holidays more.  I have gotten to the point where I don't spend money on people anymore.  Almost everything I am giving this year I have made and they are useful things that I know will be used.

Well that is my rant and I hope you enjoyed it...lol.  Really all I want for Christmas this year is my best friend to start talking to me again, or at least explain what I did so I can try and fix it.  Also it isn't a necessity but I wouldn't mind having a guy in my life but I don't see that happening.