I make the same Christmas wishes every year, well at least for the last 8 years or so, and there have been a couple years where I got the one but it hasn't lasted yet. The other one just keeps evading me. Sometimes I think I should just give up but I also know that I won't. I want both to come true, and last, so badly that it hurts. I won't tell you what the wishes are because well then they may never come true and I really want them too...oh so badly.
I work my butt off to make my goals and dreams possible. So is all the work really worth it. I don't know that it is because I don't feel like I have gotten anywhere with it. But then I look at my debt and I see that yes some of my goals are getting done. I am down to just one of my original debts and it is almost paid off. So as long as I stay on task I will be able to pay off student loans as soon as they need paid and my car will be paid off quickly. Once my car is paid off is when I will most likely be able to make one of my Christmas wishes come true for good, but we will see.
I don't ask for help often, but when I do you know there is something really wrong, or I just can't quite manage it myself. I may feel like I am getting nowhere but I know that isn't true so I guess I just suck it up and wish my Christmas wishes until they come true...they are also my birthday wishes. Honestly, they aren't really things other people can give me but things I have to get for myself.
That is my rant for now. Goodnight world!
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