GOOD NEWS!!!!

• So today I got on the Old Navy, Gap, Banana Republic job site...yes all three companies are part of Gap, Inc. Anyways, so I got on the site and the Gap is totally hiring in both local malls. I totally applied to both of them. I hope I get one of them...it means I would get my Old Navy discount back. See of the three afore mentioned stores Old Navy is considered the discount store and Banana Republic would be considered the outrageously priced New York fashion boutique, so the Gap lays somewhere in the middle. At least in my eyes. The sad thing is they all sell basically the same clothes just a different tag on the label. It's just weird.
• In other news, I got my three disc edition of TWILIGHT today. It is about time. For a 2-3 day delivery it took almost a week and a half to get here. It sat in Minnesota for about a week before it made it to Salt Lake yesterday and Orem today. It finally reached my door at about noon or so. Kind of crazy...but hey it is a THREE DISC edition and it is freaking TWILIGHT.
• Hmmm...what else can I update you all on? Two more interviews this week so far. I have one at Build-A-Bear Workshop on Wednesday at noon and the other one is for an office position Thursday at 9:30 AM...I may need some help getting up for that one...since I have to catch the bus at like 8:30 or something crazy like that. Just means shower and straighten the hair the night before and maybe take something to put me to sleep the night before so that I'm not sleeping in till 9.
• I don't really have much else to rant about...except for my stupid video player keeps not working correctly on me. I re installed it yesterday and watched part of Vanity Fair (with Reese Witherspoon) and when I went to finish it this morning it wouldn't work again. I am so freaking confused about what is going on with the stupid thing. So I guess in order to watch Twilight I need to re install it again and go from there. I AM GOING TO WATCH TWILIGHT TONIGHT IF IT KILLS ME AND I HAVE TO REINSTALL THE STUPID THING TEN TIMES. The odd thing is it works until I shut down my computer and then it no longer works. Anybody have any ideas why that might be?
• Oh and one more thing. I have totally started looking for another new place to live come April 23rd...the end of this contract...and I think I totally found it already. I just started looking this morning but I found this place not far from where I currently am for $100 a month (end of April to end of August) with no deposit and the last month's rent is free. How cool is that? It is a condo not far from where I currently am and way affordable. It is the perfect amount of rent for me with my mega bills standing in front of me. It is a shared room in a condo and I think I am going to take it. Gotta get a job first...come on Gap, Inc call me for an interview ASAP...and maybe an office job...yay for killing myself to make money this summer.
• I still haven't decided what I am going to do with the $300 rebate I am supposed to be getting. I have three options. Save it (part of an Emergency Fund)...use it to snowball...or us it for things I want. Don't worry Deb if you are reading this it will most likely go to one of the first two. Now if I could have found the Complete Collection of Gilmore Girls for under $100 I might have had to get it but I can't so the rebate should be safe...lol. I know you have an opinion on this Deb and if you are reading this I would really like to know what that opinion is...afterall you are my Accountability Partner and all.
• Oh and this weekend is General Conference. I am way excited about that. This will be the second Conference I have watched in almost three years and well I am just really blessed to be able to watch it from where ever I want. I just don't know where that will be yet.
• I have been a reading and writing monster lately. Now if I could finish a few of the like six books I am currently working my way through. Yes that's right I am currently reading like six books...I did finally finish two of them so I was reading like eight books. Three of them are audiobooks and I should finish at least two of them soon. When it comes to writing I spent hours at the library starting to type up and edit the story I have been writing after the most recent block I had.
• Anyways, I think that is all I have for now. I will fill you all in more when there is something important to say or I remember some more random things to mention. Oh I do hope I can make it to Institute tonight. I haven't been while out here yet and I really want to go. Talk to you all later.

In the zone...

So last night I totally started writing again. I was sitting at the library reading and all the sudden I totally got inspired to start writing. I always have a notebook with me in my bookbag (which is also considered my purse anymore) so I pulled it out and just started writing. It was very inspiring. I spent all of today writing too...well most of today. I know that is random but that is really all I have to say for today. NEXT WEEKEND IS GENERAL CONFERENCE!!!! YAY!!!

TOO BAD...

So I did my federal taxes tonight because I got my last W2 from my mom in the mail. I still have to do the state taxes but seeing as I already know that I owe money on both I am waiting till I get my refund which should be on the 10th of April. From the looks of it I will owe $111 in PA state taxes and only $6 in Utah state taxes. Very confused about how that is but we will see for sure once I do them. You know I should be so excited about getting about $1000 back on my taxes but I'm not as excited as I should be. See if I weren't on my own and owing on bills I could totally put it all in savings to go to Germany come June. But after I pay off all my outstanding bills I will probably have about $600 left. Yes that is still a large sum but as I still have no job I will be living off of that until I get one. So like I said, I am excited to get it but not as excited as I would be if I could just save the money and go to Germany. Maybe I will get lucky and I will get a job next week and be able to save at least $500 of that money. In my mind I am telling myself that I should throw what is left after I pay all the current amounts due into my Dell bill but since I will need to live off of it for the next while I can't even do that. I am in a war zone when it comes to money but I am staying afloat and working hard not to overdraw my account so that I can get out of this Fresh Start Checking Account crap. I hate having to pay a monthly fee every month for my account. At least now I'm not paying a monthly fee plus paying to put money in my account, that really sucked more than I can say. But I plan to work my butt off to get out of debt and live on my own. If I have to I will work 3 jobs this summer, or more. My life will not be my own until I am completely debt free and have proved that I can get out of debt while paying rent and utilities and all that other crap. I need to prove it to myself and too my family who thought coming out here I was running away from my problems. What they don't understand is that I knew what I was doing every step of the way. I knew the only way to change was to get out of Pennsylvania to somewhere I knew people would want to help me be who I am supposed to be not stay where people wanted me to be what they made me. I am not the same controllable, quiet little girl I was almost 7 months ago. I am a self reliant, open minded, semi outspoken woman. I spent years struggling with my weight...in 5 months I lost a little over 50 pounds and I am keeping that weight off. I have killed over $600 of my debt. I am making progress in my life and I am ready for new adventures every step of the way. In the last few weeks alone I have become more spiritual and trying hard to come closer to my Heavenly Father. I am more at peace with who I am and what I am supposed to be doing. I do however wish that just this once I could be frivolous and spend the money I get on something I want not paying off debt and State taxes. But I brought this upon myself and I will do the right thing with the money even though I may be tempted not to. My debt is my problem and nobody elses. It has made me a better person in learning that buying should be on a need to survive basis not a want to have basis. I have learned a lot about myself through my issues with money and I am glad I have Debbie who helped me see the errors of my way and is there to help me get out of the situation I put myself in with debt. She is an awesome accountability partner and I love that she started me on the Dave Ramsey program. Well I am done rambling about my issues with money and my want to spend it. Thanks for listening or I guess reading in this case.

Roan Inish...

So today I made pudding and ate some and I think it totally made me sick. I don't know whether the milk I made it with was bad or what but I have felt so sick to my stomach since I had some. I mean my milk didn't smell bad but the expiration date is today so anything is possible and I was trying to use it up before it did go bad and all. Oh well I guess we will see how I feel tomorrow...there has been a bug going around our apartment it seems, so it could be that as well. For those of you who don't know there is a meaning behind this blogs title. There is this movie called the Secret of Roan Inish. It is a movie about an Irish family who while moving off of the island of Roan Inish had a little baby float away in his cradle. Well the babies sister comes back a few years later to live with her grandparents not far from the island if Roan Inish. While she is with her grandparents she visits Roan Inish and finds her brother. Although, he keeps running from her...the seals and birds had raised him and he had been living on Roan Inish for quite a few years alone. The girl finally gets her grandparents to believe her and they go to the island to live again...that is when the seals return the boy (Jaime) to his family. That is just a brief discription of the movie and it is one of my favorite movies about Ireland. Since I am a direct descendent of Irish Kings I love the month of March and I love St. Patrick's Day. But this movie got to me today while I was watching it. I'm not sure why...I think it is because nobody but Fiona (that is the sisters name) knew the truth. I imagine it must have been lonely for her and annoying at the same time. Today I have felt like a part of me is missing and I have to say I hate that feeling. I don't know what part of me is missing but I don't remember a time when that part has ever been there. There has always been something missing in my life. This movie got me to thinking about that today and I want to be like Fiona who never gave up the search for her missing brother. I do not plan on giving up until I figure out what piece of me is missing. In other news now that I am out of my doldrum part of this blog...

• I may have another job interview next week at the local Build-A-Bear Workshop...they sent me an email earlier and asked if I was still interested and about some other details. I replied to the email and called to talk to them in person.
• It snowed again last night...I woke up to a snow covered ground and really bad wind.
• I finished the movies I need to return to the library soon...Roan Inish which I obviously love and South Pacific which I really couldn't get into, I'm not sure what all the hype is about when it comes to that movie.
• I have been prayerfully reading a few chapters in the scriptures every night...for the last week. I am trying to do better when it comes to living the church standards.
• I plan to get my Patriarchal Blessing next week...I need to call tomorrow and set up a date with the Patriarch.

Things I need to do in the next few days...

• Get an application over to the Bakery and see about getting an interview there ASAP.
• Get an application to the Brick Oven, the movie theater and Macey's...all of which I have in my bag just haven't gotten to the places to turn them in...it has only been a few days since I filled them out.
• Call and set up an appointment with the Patriarch.
• Return the movies to the library...maybe get a couple more. I want to get State Fair and see how good it is. I am really on a musical kick lately and that is another one that I have not seen that I have always wanted to. The first one I got was Carousel...which was good, I liked the songs but the acting and some of the singers left much to be desired to say the least.
• Figure out where I am going to go come April 23rd which is the day I am out of a contract here.

I'm sure there is more to do but those are just the few things that come to my mind at the moment. So I think that is all I have to say for tonight. I am going back to my episode of Gossip Girl to finish out the night. Thanks for listening all.

The Rush...

I am so totally used to having to have a title that I forget you don't need one on here so I come up with interesting titles that have nothing to do with the actual subject. Imagine that, a writer coming up with an interesting title but a not so interesting blog. What is the world coming to. So today I had two interviews. I won't go into details but I doubt I got the first one which I am completely ok with. The second one went a lot better and I am praying that I get it. They had one concern and that was my lack of knowledge when it comes to video games and gaming. I think I did pretty good at impressing them though. But tonight I had the privilege to see the Bishop of my new ward. Next week I am totally planning on getting my Patriarchal Blessing. So I got the recommend to get that and I also got a limited use Temple recommend. That is all I really wanted to say for tonight. I am off to read my scriptures, say my prayers and hit the sack. Good night all...

A Family Affair...

This is just a random little blurb. I totally miss every body up in Layton, Clearfield and Ogden. I have been thinking about maybe coming up to see people for General Conference but since I have no money it probably won't happen. I am still looking for a job but the video store is doing interviews tomorrow...although that is what they said last week and it got pushed back to this week. Wal-mart and Toys r us are also hiring as well as the La Quinta Inn. I have applied literally everywhere down here. Then I called all the ones I had numbers for and it turns out that not one of them was actually hiring besides those 4. Imagine that!!!! If your not hiring take the dang sign or posting down. I still need to print my resume out and take it to the bakery. It is raining off and on today and when it does it pours so I am not going out in it. Tomorrow I am at it again though...without doubt I will go. Sunday I went to the Draper Temple dedication. Wow, to see all those handkerchiefs waving at the end saying Hallelujah over and over was amazing. I am glad I made the choice to come down here. I have had spiritual experience after spiritual experience thanks to my roommate in the past two and a half weeks. Now to just get the much needed job and I will be set and I will have to figure out what I want to do come April 24th. I love everything about Provo for now but I have been looking into jobs on cruise ships and think it is what I want to do next. I know you all probably think I am nuts but I think it would be cool to do and I could see all the places I want to see for FREE. I have also been thinking about working as a flight attendent but none of the airlines are hiring for flight attendents and most of the cruise lines I looked into are hiring. I just think it would be really cool to be able to travel the world for FREE. Did I mention that already??? my bad. I am also thinking I might want to move to California or Arizona next. As it is really expensive in those areas I would prefer the job on a cruise ship. Another thing is it would mean looking for another new job if I move anywhere come April 24th and I am really not ready to do that at all. We will see what happens though. Everything is just all up in the air and I truly hate that feeling anymore. Well I think that is all that is on my mind right now. Later!!

Draper Temple...

So last Tuesday (March 10) I had the chance to go to the Draper Temple Open House. It was an experience I will never forget. I have never gone farther than the Baptismal Font so to see the Ordinance Rooms and the Sealing Room was amazing to me. All the gorgeous chandeliers and mirrors, the murals in the ordinance rooms were amazing. I had such intense emotions that I got really confused and could barely talk when we left. But going to the Temple did help me figure out what to say to one of my best friends Ben, who is struggling with the church. I am so grateful to have come to this apartment because my roommate Clara and some of the other girls are helping me immensely. We all get along great and I love them all. I can't believe it has only been a week and a couple days since I got here in Provo. I am possibly considering staying the summer term too. We will see what happens though. Well there isn't much else to say so I will talk to you all later.