A Walk Down Memory Lane...

So I found a bunch of disks with pictures from June 2003 to at least 2006 or 2007. I can't believe how much I changed over the last five years.

HS Graduation 2003...July or August 2003...Christmas Day 2003...Winter/Spring 2004...Summer 2004...Christmas 2004...2005... 2006...2007... 2008... this first one is Shawn Kidner(the biggest mistake of my life) and then me2009...

July Hurry Up and get here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I'm thinking that May and June need to fly by this year...I mean faster than they normally do. I want July to come as fast as it can and then the next couple months need to go fast and then the rest of the year needs to go slow. Does that make sense? Well if it doesn't I'm sorry but I don't know how to explain it better. Recently my life has been full of difficult times and interesting twists and turns. I have been thrown curve ball after curve ball and I got through them all without too many issues. I felt like the problems that kept piling on would never end but I knew that I was pursuing the right path so I kept moving forward. I knew I wouldn't be thrown anything I couldn't handle at the time...but at one point I felt truly over loaded but after asking for help everything fell into place and I knew what I needed to do to fix each problem. So now I have a decent job...the people I listen to everyday are idiots but the pay and hours are good so I'm not going to complain too much. I found a new place to move too without a problem. I am getting married in July (no date just yet but definitely July). I am also working hard to pay off my debt before the end of Summer. Things are finally falling into place. Now there are just some smaller and easier decisions to make one of which I need to spend some major time thinking about but only I can make these decisions and that sucks. I am proving everybody wrong so far with my move out here and yes there have been a few setbacks but nothing I couldn't handle. I am happier and more alive out here than I ever was back east, even more than when I lived in Virginia and I didn't think that was possible. Life has a plan for everybody and this was the path I needed to take to find what I needed from life. Here's to being happy and content with the trials and tribulations that are thrown my way. I love waking up to the mountains and knowing that the reason I was meant to come out here is to enjoy life. Life is great!!!

GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK!!!

OK...TODAY HAS SUCKED. CAN'T I GET JUST ONE GOOD DAY FOR ALL THE BAD ONES LATELY AND I JUST WENT OVER MY LIMIT OF THINGS I CAN TAKE. GIVE ME A GOOD DAY SOON OR I'M GOING TO SCREAM...PEOPLE ARE IDIOTS!!! AND I LEAVE YOU TO CONTEMPLATE THAT!!!

Been a crazy few days...

I don't even know when the last time I posted an update was but well here is what has been going on since oh Friday night.

• Friday...I can't for the life of me remember what I did during the day but Friday night I got all spiffed up and went out with Kimberly, Seth, Cassie and Christy. We went to the Provo Towne Center (Mall) to Red Robin. We had a wait of like 40 minutes so Kimber, Christy and I went to this awesome shoe store called Sole Envy. OMG!!! I so wanted like a bunch of the shoes but being on a budget kept me from doing so. At Red Robin we had a blast, we couldn't stop laughing. It was so great!
• Saturday...I just kinda hung out at the apartment because I wasn't feeling well. I did make a trip to the library to return books I had so that they didn't get lost in the move and all. Other than that it was just a hang out and hope to feel better day.
• Sunday...I woke up still not feeling well and I slept most of the day. I did start packing up my room at about um...6:30 and did a bit of that, I figured that if I had to work every night and still had to do the whole clean check thing as well I had better get as much packing as I could done as soon as I could.
• Monday...I started work and for a call center I really don't mind it at all. It is actually all computer operated and I rarely have to talk to anybody. The people are really cool too. Then I went home and packed some more as my roommate was doing the same thing until midnight. So it was almost 1 am when we both got to bed.
• Tuesday...Well I did some packing in the morning because I knew I would be getting home late. Then I headed off to work. I didn't home until like 10:30 and I did my laundry and finished packing completely. I didn't get to sleep until like almost 2 am.
• Wednesday...I woke up at like 6 and laid in bed till about 7:30 when I fell back to sleep till 8 when I got up and packed up anything I had left out to use the following day and my bedding. I then went straight into clean check cleaning. I picked the livingroom and I totally don't know why I did that but it doesn't matter. I cleaned till almost 1 and then walked to the bus stop where the bus was almost 30 minutes late which landed me at work seconds before I was too start. After work I waited for Kimberly to get home and we went to pick up all my things and I moved out and in, in about the same time it took me to just move in last time...not that that is a bad thing. I didn't get to sleep until like 12:30 this morning.
• Today(Thursday)...Well I got up at 7 and got ready for the day. Kimberly dropped me back at my old apartment so that I could finish the cleaning. I started at 8 and finished everything but vaccuuming by like 9:30 so I had to wait for my roommates to wake up before I did that. I grabbed the few things I had forgotten and headed out at 11. I did my grocery shopping (I totally got 2 1/2 lbs of apples for like $1.50 2 ok packages of strawberries for $1.25 and a pineapple for $0.99...sweet deals) and got back to my new apartment at between 12:30 and 1. So I relaxed for an hour before work. I obviously went to work and now I am typing this. I am heading to bed soon as it is already 10:40 and as you can see I haven't had a lot of sleep this week at all.

Makes me wonder what tomorrow will bring but I really don't have anything besides work on the schedule for tomorrow and that doesn't start till 2 pm so it is a relaxation day to be sure...I will update soon I promise.

A post of music video's sorry...you have to enjoy them just like me...

Just for the Record Live by Jordin Sparks...one of my new favorites... It Happens Live by Sugarland...another new favorite... Johnny and June by Heidi Newfield There was another one I wanted to post on here as well but well there is no embed code so when I find a copy of it I will add it to my blog. Sorry I am having a musically enhanced day and I wanted to share some of the good ones I have come across in the last few days. I love music it is everything to me and it is so very easy to express yourself through songs. These are songs I have been listening too for the last two weeks...well since last Friday. Love them all.

Random thought of the day...

So this is going to be really random but I am thinking about growing my hair out long like it used to be. For those of you who remember that or knew me then what do we think? If I do should I go with bangs again...or maybe the side sweep bangs? I don't know! Would it look good long with no bangs? I would prefer not to go that way at all. Maybe I will ask Cassie and Kimberly what they think. They would be good judges as Cassie is the manager at a salon and Kimberly well I just trust her judgment. Seth would be a really good judge as he is one of the first people to ever cut my hair with play scissors. That was the first time my hair was ever short too. See I don't know because I am just starting to get some natural curl back in my hair. Sure it only last a short time but it is nice to have that back. I don't know I am ranting though. So give me your opinion and I'll go from there. Maybe I will find an old picture of me with long hair somewhere and try to post it for those of you who have never seen me with long hair.

Cquazy Week and it's only half over...

• What can I say I am alive and well...lol. Things couldn't be going better at all this week. Last week was pretty crappy but I'm not going into that at all because it isn't worth it. I had an awesome Easter Sunday with my cousins and on that night I set myself a goal that I had to have a job by Wednesday. I love hanging out with my cousins they are genuinely good people and that is all there is too it. It was great to just hang out and play games and talk. MOODS is an awesome game and I can't wait to get the chance to play it again.

• So I got lucky on the job front on Tuesday when I walked into Featured Films for Families in Orem (right across the street from Kimber and Christy's apartment) filled out the application and had an immediate interview. They discussed it quickly and they wanted me to start yesterday but I had a previous trip to the Salt Lake City Temple planned and I was not going to back out of that it is too big an experience to pass up. So I said I could start today but they decided that I should start on Monday at 2 pm and work till 9 pm...that is going to be my shift every day Monday through Friday and every other Saturday from 9 am to 1 pm. I really don't want to be at a call center but a job is a job and I'm not going to complain. Especially since it is $8 and hour plus a $1 per hour incentive as long as you are there for your scheduled shift and stay the whole time. I think he said after a month the pay goes up to $9 an hour with the same pay incentive. I am excited about that. I am thinking about taking a morning job somewhere as well. I just don't know yet. The more I can bring in money wise all the better for me to say the least. I still hope to get my debt completely out of the way this year at the latest. I don't care if it takes me working 3 jobs I will get my money situation under control.
• So I just went to buy myself a new power cord for my laptop because mine is about dead it keeps switching between power cord and battery mode with the slightest touch. It is annoying as all else. But so I go to order one and my Dell card is on hold. So I am going to wait until I have my first paycheck and order it then, hopefully for cheaper than $66 plus shipping and handling. It is kind of crazy how much it costs for just a power cord. I am tempted to just upgrade my laptop and get a new one but it took too much time to make a dent in paying off the Dell card and I am still paying for the laptop my sister fried from Best Buy, how sad is that.
• Yesterday I had the chance to head up to the Salt Lake City Temple and do baptisms for the dead. It was a much needed trip to the Temple and I am grateful that I got to go. Here are some pictures of outside afterwards...more to come when my roommate sends me the pictures with us in them. It was just easier to deal with one camera in the freezing cold snowy day than come up with several people to take pictures for us.
• So that has been the first four days of my week so we will see what happens the rest of the week. If you haven't noticed I love taking pictures of historic places or awesome scenery and I have actually thought about majoring or minoring in photography. Or at least taking classes in it...maybe one day I will, who knows. I will update again soon...I promise.

MONSTEROUS AMOUNTS OF CONFUSION!!!!

• I am so very upset about things in life right now. I have nobody that will really understand what is going on so I won't go into details. Let's just say CONFUSION has been INFUSED into my life.

• Anyways, today is Easter and I don't feel very Eastery. There are so many concerns and issues on my mind and I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going. I don't know why things are difficult for me but I know there is a reason for everything and I am just trying to figure out what that reason is. I have an idea of where I am moving after this place...if I can get the deposit money necessary and the rest of rent due in the next what two weeks. I am still looking for a job and I don't want to have to depend on somebody else's hospitality like I did for so long before I came down here. I am making it on my own here I just have to find a way to continue making it on my own.

• I have so many questions floating around in my mind that need answers and hopefully I will get the answers I need today. I have been waiting for so long to get answers to some of the questions that are floating around in my mind and today I may get answers for them. I am so out of it due to lack of sleep and a roaming mind so I am going to go and try to calm my mind and maybe take a short nap so that I am more aware for my Patriarchal Blessing in about an hour.

• I will update you all later...

Random facts in the business of life

Life has been crazy lately. This past weekend was General Conference and for the first time ever I watched every session...well besides the Preisthood session. I enjoyed spending time with the Gruber's on Saturday. Sunday I enjoyed Conference from my bedroom. Today I have been going crazy calling places that weren't hiring three weeks ago but told me to try back in a couple weeks. Most of them still aren't hiring but I am going to walk down to TGI Friday's and apply there...the girl I talked to this morning said they might have an opening and I might be able to talk to somebody today about a job. She never said if they were hiring but whatever. I just applied for an office job in N. Carolina for the summer. FREE housing and $2000 a week I believe it said. But I just realized...yes I may get free housing but how the heck would I get out there??? I never thought about that till just now. OH well...well I am off for now...later

Two very touching songs in video form...

BETHANY JOY GALEOTTI (Songs In My Pocket) One Tree Hill "Manhattan From The Sky" Montage
So these two videos are on myspace but I love them. Both singers are on One Tree Hill and that is where the one video is from. I just love the songs and the voices. The meaning behind the songs isn't bad either lol. A real post later.